It’s been forever since I managed to write anything. So much has happened since I last wrote – some good, some bad, definitely a lot of surprises. Will need to find time to write it all down – insha Allah soon.

It’s been pretty gloomy for the past week with cloudy skies throughout the day with rains pouring on some days. Personally it does effect my mood a bit, feeling heavy and as much as I hate to say it out loud, lazy to do anything.  Sky, Bukit Jelutong, Shah Alam, 28 January 2023 It doesn’t help with some of the unexciting news that came in throughout the week.Somehow got to figure how to cope with the internal turbulence I’m facing inside. There are days I can come to terms with it but there are many moments it comes and bug...

It’s the Chinese New Year break and took a trip up to Langkawi to wind down. It’s been a while since I spent time on a island and actually going out to the sea. I used to do island trips quite a lot when I was younger in my uni days with both my school and uni hommies – almost every semester break. Just the smell of the sea and lazing around at the beach (despite the hot sun) is therapy – it’s pretty awesome. I can swim but can’t actually float due to my trauma of almost drowning during...

While me and Ruzain were doing our usual afternoon exercise routine, I had a sudden throwback moment as I watched him walk during our small outdoor walk round, which he calls jogging and when we were doing our three piece exercise relay.  Three things came to mind. First: I’m thankful for how much more stable Ruzain is – he still has his moments but lesser in intensity and frequency. I also know how much he tries to control it though at times still fails. Such a journey, a beautiful one nevertheless. Second: I suddenly remembered the moments where he hurt...

Last week definitely felt long, and tiring. I’m actually struggling to write any highlights of the week. I was constantly finding ways to rush and survive through certain hours of the days – some of it felt really long.  Among the best moments were actually the breaks in between, also lunch, dinners and hang out sessions with my favorite people. At least I got that. It made me think and reflect about a lot of things. I’ve come to realize that its those moments I enjoy a lot and probably that truly matters.  The other stuff happening are just part...