Its the third day of the new year. 2023 still hasn’t really sink in. Still trying to find the rhythm to start the new year on a higher note but honestly I’m still on holiday mood (that’s what I tell myself).
But I then need to be fair to the world as even Ruzain already started his new year by going to school. Although not without his usual stunt of not sleeping; either as an act of rebellion or just anxious – really don’t know which is which anymore.
Of course I’m the usual casualty. Not even sure how many hours of sleep I managed to catch last night. Luckily I took leave today – now I remember why I did. It happens every time post school holidays.
Hopefully tonight he sleeps better. Got to be at the hospital at 8.30am tomorrow for my annual medical checkup and hopefully that turns out ok too.
Also 3rd January are always a bit emotional. Thankful Ruzain isn’t triggered about – it did last year. It would be my late dad’s 74th birthday if he was alive.
اَللَّهُمَّ اغْفِرْ لَهُ وَارْحَمْهُ وَعَافِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنْهُ
For some reason, been thinking and remembering about him quite past few weeks. I also realised Ruzain’s neck at night, actually smells like my late dad. So yeah, maybe it’s that too.
Let’s see what tomorrow is set out for me – maybe some miracle will happen to give life a boost. If not, it’s ok – it’s just another day.